Hullo, luvs.
May. 14th, 2018 05:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kay_mulanIn case my families are reading this, I have really spent my life overcoming I. and A. etc. dividing me from you, and I'm glad I know this now.
I know that people die from lupus after 3 weeks, I have been so blessed to be on my 12th year.
But my echocardiogram in 2012 (thanks Eva and Luis et all) told me that psychiatric medications were giving me heart failure, and that it was immanent, I'm really sorry I was a bulimic anorexic in high school, and I had anorexia nervosa in my twenties and I hate all the ways the system fails but I care, so yes heart failure and lupus, and me with psychiatric medications still and for both I'm really feeling (pain) it (yuck) now, so just in case, I have never heard voices, I have never hurt anyone including myself, I have only ever had love, I am not insane, I am a surviving rape victim, and I loved all the ways that we could touch online, and I love you, and I wish you all the best. Just for today.
To life.
I know that people die from lupus after 3 weeks, I have been so blessed to be on my 12th year.
But my echocardiogram in 2012 (thanks Eva and Luis et all) told me that psychiatric medications were giving me heart failure, and that it was immanent, I'm really sorry I was a bulimic anorexic in high school, and I had anorexia nervosa in my twenties and I hate all the ways the system fails but I care, so yes heart failure and lupus, and me with psychiatric medications still and for both I'm really feeling (pain) it (yuck) now, so just in case, I have never heard voices, I have never hurt anyone including myself, I have only ever had love, I am not insane, I am a surviving rape victim, and I loved all the ways that we could touch online, and I love you, and I wish you all the best. Just for today.
To life.
